meet again!!

uuu-huuu

there has been a long time i havent updated my precious blog... ermm it seems i updated this blog only the semester breaks...when i dont noe what to do...when there is much time to spend on the net surfing...when i feel like to update...

so pity to this blog...

everytime i update this blog, i always hope that i will never neglect you, however something more important + urgent need to be done first.... ;)

(sleeping+reading novels+facebooking etc)

actually:

I AM TOO LAZY TO UPDATE...

thats it...end of the story...

easy...

i know some people whenever they go online, they must log in their blogs...

unfortunately, not for me...

everytime i go online, i for sure check my mails and notifications on facebook, even though i am going to do the assignments, those two pages must be opened....

this is very bad for me...

okay for now...

hope i can always update you!

sorry babe..

*hoping to update wheels of life frequently*

(please ignore the old pic of mine: symbolizes i am updating it)

till now

daa

xoxo

(",)

FIFA WORLD CUP!

this entry is specially written for football match (world cup 2010)

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now i understand the feelings of football's fans as i, myself excited to watch every matches..

wowww that was amazing rite..

but

seriously

when i watched the match..

all of my worries will fly away and i can release my tension...

i think that was good for me

and some other party as well..

=)

but

the thing is

i cant be quite when i watched the match

i kept on shouting and screaming

(i supposed that were usual habit for the fans)

still oke bout that

but for this thing

i cant help it anymore.

my heart beat will always goes fast when it comes to the critical time..

oooo--hooo

am soo afraid that my chosen-team not win the game...

and

when it happened..

i will go upset..

hurmmm

that was not good!

whatever it is..

*i watched Portugal vs Brazil that night till the end of time..without miss anything*

(cristiano ronaldo=picture was not during that match)

I LIKE WATCHING FOOTBALL MATCH EVEN THOUGH I DO NOT KNOW MUCH ABOUT THE GAMES, PLAYERS etc....

thats it..

hopefully i can help my eyes to keep on awaken to watch argentina tonight

daaa

xoxoxo

on my own!

do i have to follow what others said???

or

should i just follow what my heart says???

really3 dont noe..

yes,

i sometimes tend to listen to others but i dont noe whether they are right or wrong...

for me myself as well

i dont really noe me soo deep...

soo

what should i do?

there is always something blocking...

can i just ignore all?

and

do what i want to do??

ermm of course i cant

i'm not living in a jungle neither in a cave..

living in a society must have the manners to be followed!

yes...

MANNERS

everything is based on our manners..

soo

please behave!

people are judged based on their manners.

p/s: owh, how i really miss my dearest best friend........ how nice if i could share everything with her...she is the one who can understand me. understand my situation. understand my condition.

Allah knows better what is the best for me.

i accept that.

ALHAMDULILLAH

..........

the time has come!!!

maybe the time has come........

everybody was worried.....

till this age i do not even know how to cook......

i dont know how to operate fish as in malay *menyiang ikan*

i am afraid of frying (i.e fish n chicken)

because of the pops it will make...

i have tried cook something but nobody ate....

so

better for me not to waste my time and energy for that.....

and i realize something...........

I DONT LIKE COOKING

thats why i dont have any feelings or any interests in cooking...

i just cook whenever mom asks me to help her...

to be precise, i just help mummy to cook...

i am not the one who cook for my family like others who cook for their family when they are up till this age or even younger than i am....

before this everything was oke...

but now, i have to make myself to love with all the cooking things...

all rite...

i'll try...

try

try

try

then

when it comes to the time of trying..

mummy will end up like she wants to do everything because cant stand with my mouths..

too many questions with this and that...

like i dont know every single thing of cooking things...

in conclusion,

i manage to find out the factor of i-dont-know-how-to-cook with these 2 major factors:

1. nobody will eat what i cook

2. i've no opportunity to cook

but!

i have to do something...

because the time has come...

1. it was a shameful when a girl like me still dont know how to cook

2. it has 3, 4, 5 years to go before getting married

oke..

thats all from now...

do wish me luck for this thing...

hohohoho

p/s: really need to practice this like what mama long said, cooking is just like an experiment...if failed for the first time then we have to try again until we get the well-done-cooking...

~i'm missing you so much baby~

it was only 1 week he left...

but my heart cant help it...

missing him all the time....

we had been sleeping together for more than a month...

listening to ur cries was i missed the most....huhuhu

love = coffee + wind

.....love.....

is when somebody makes coffee for you and she takes a sip before passing it to you to make sure that the taste is okay....

finally i can manage to have my hobby back..

READING N.O.V.E.L.S.

i love that damn much..

but, i dont noe wat happened, there has been about 2 or 3 semester breaks that i did not practice my hobby...which is reading novels...

i was really happy for this semester break as i can finish up to 5 novels by now and i am going to finish them all which i have 5 more to go.... =)

i have to read them all before the semester officially started for i do not practicing my hobby during the class on...

its not like i want to concentrate on my study with all the linguistics and literatures and diagramming books but i tend to do another hobbies when i'm not at home...

probably gossiping and watching movies will do better besides studying...

~GTG~

just finish a good one and i'm going to start a new one in minutes time...

yeeehhaaa----

....love....

is in the air...

come and goes as the wind blows....

p/s: reading novels too can gain knowledge as the authors explained the terms, places and everything in details...and yes, somehow they are overrated... huhu

`surprise was not surprised~

*no candles? ooo-hooo*

*happy birthday mummy*

mode: celebrating mummy's birthday

the dinner supposed to be surprised...

we did arrange everything so that mummy will not realized of celebrating her birthday...

unfortunately...

the suppose-to-be-surprise-birthday-dinner was not well done...
deq nur and i were totally 'gotcha' when we surprisingly met mummy who was already in the restaurant waiting for us to arrive...

(we brought in the cake at the wrong time)

hurmmm

how could papa and mummy arrived so early?

the answer is: papa is really hungry and cannot wait any longer...

*haish*

everything was spoiled....

the waiters and waitresses were also not soo good!

yes, they did serve us properly with all the good food..

but-

they did not do as promised...

(they supposed to sing a happy birthday song while bringing out the cake during the dessert-eating-time)

i was quite upset for that event...

never mind....

as long as mummy was happy for what we had done,

we all be happy too...

probably next time we should arrange the better place and better time and of course with full quorum of our family....

*rizq: happy birthday tok*

*papa & i = oke =)*

*papa n deq nur = too oke =))*

*with adeq who just came back yesterday*

*owh, rizq! do ue want some?*

*not enough quorum: abear n a.jaly were not there*

me? photographer, oke...

ermm and sorry-for-not-being-a-good-photographer..

[really hope everybody was there]

P.A.P.A

when it comes to the blog writing,

it has always being a sad or unhappy entry...

but..

that is me...

i will express my thoughts in the way of writing when it comes to the sadness part...

it will make me feel relieved...

this tyme is all about papa..

i dont noe wat happens to him...

people said that when we are getting older then our behaviour will change and we will be more sensitive..

i can accept that...

but

when this old people acts like something else...

i cant accept that...

he is sooo weird...

i cant even understand him....

all this while,
he will not allowed his children to go for a job during the break...

suddenly this time he did ask me to go n find a job for this 2 months break...

i really3 dont have idea bout that...

before this,

he dont even give his permission for abear to go n work during the break..

this time is obviously that i cant do that..

there are lots of things i need to do during the break:

1. babysit rizq

2. prepare for a.ajay's wedding

that are the 2 big things i need to face..

one more thing that makes me feel bad...

during my final exam...

usually i will text him and tell him that i have paper for the following day...

and i said, "takot la pa, esok subject susah"

he will reply, "xpe, kn dah study, buat stkt yg mampu sj, jgn tension2 bc selawat bnyk2....bla...bla...bla....."

and all the encouraging n motivational words for me

and after the exam, he will ask me about the exam...

whether i can answer it properly or not...

and for my side...

if i cant answer the questions and i found that the questions are really3 tough,

i will straight away call papa right after the exams...

sometimes i cry to him and ask him not to expect too high result from me this time....

however...

all those things are not happened during my final exams recently...

i am just wondering why...

i did text him as usual...

but he replied with not all the encouraging and motivational words anymore...

not even wishing me gud luck and not even asked me how was the exam....

like usual.....

why papa??

is there anything that i did which not comfort you?

please forgive me for that...

if i did not realize wat i've done to you...

PAPA

we are sooo closed..

we shared almost everything together except my love story

(i dont think its the right time to talk to papa for that thing yet)

that makes me feel sooo down when you mad at me...

i think it is just a simple thing..

then,

why u have to mad at me like i'm a bad daughter..i'm a bad girl...

i did everything u've asked me to do..

i've always be nice to you...

when this incident happens,

i feel sooo very sad..

i'm sorry papa if i'm wrong...

but...still..

i cant think it logically when you act like that...

the thing is........

papa is not like always...

he is being weird for these 2, 3 weeks...

somehow i am afraid to talk to him...

we are now have less conversations...

i think it is better..

if i talk and make things more complicated..

then there are no purpose of conversing....

whatever it is

I LOVE PAPA

sooo very much

without him

i am nowhere in this world

*hope everything will be okay*