reunion???

soo-o happy when we meet our school mates again.... =)
it was an unplanned+on the spot function when around 2o of them decided to continue our discussion+talking+gossiping
in my house...
it was my pleasure to have them all knowing my house although its not that gud....
(ooo-hoo the girls did discover all over my ouse even to the kitchen)
(kinda shamefull)

we first met at onyen's ouse after a very3 long tyme not seeing each other and we'r not supposed to make noise and act childishly at the wedding, aren't we??
hmmm but, the excitement of ourselves are beyond anything....
and thats bring them all back to my ouse...
(ooo hoo its not onyen's wedding but his sister)


at first,
we thought that it'll be the girls' evening
and
fortunately,
the guys also wanted to join us... n it was gud...
heep heep hooray... =)
i was sooo glad to have them all eating fried banana+colek keropok...
ermmmm some of the girls called that hi-tea......ahaks
-yuuu huuuu-

but...
when we all realized it was nearly 7,
all of them decided to say gudbye to my ouse n also to me.....
waaaaa =(
it was very sad when seeing all of them started their car engines and leaving to their ouse.....
but, its oke...
we all did agree to gather again some other day...

place: dont noe yet??
date: dont noe yet??
time: dont noe yet??

--ouhhhooo--
(qim n eppoo please take action bout this)


owh...
not to forget....
one day before yesterday....
we did really enjoy our evening at pcb... ahaaa
but its only 8 of us
we used to call it
girls' evening... =)

*pcians*

*gossiping tyme*


time to go...

daaaa...

p/s: sorry for not make you guys comfortable at my ouse.... feel free to come at anytime, just give me a call yeah.....make urselves at home!!

>>> sorry 4 not uploading many pics...huhu

*its not worth waiting*

some people say that we cannot tooo gay of having a lot of joy as the happiness will soon change into the sadness....
and i think i have to agree with that...
i was really happy yesterday like flying up in the sky...
(met the old frens of mine and we did have all the gossiping)
but at this time
i am really upset like laying down to earth...

*wooosh3*
please go away sadness from my heart...
i hate you...really hate...yes definite hate...




i know......
when it not starts with something good, so the result at the end also will be bad...
like me....
when i first logged in my matrix number and password on esmp..
and when the screen displayed that i typed the wrong matrix number or password...
i already knew...it must be sumthing!!!!
whether my sem 1 exam result is tooo good
or tooo bad....
and today, i get it.....
as expected...
huhuhuuhuu

but its okay...
i deserved what i got...
and i am grateful for my exam result....
huhuuu

p/s: need to go out n have some mind relaxing.......
>>>>note to etty n ama: please cheer me up this evening------

enough is enough

well,
after everything seems to be okay with me n him....
suddenly, there's something going to happen again......
i noe...

OMG....
i dont noe how 2 express my feelings rite now...
(i want but i dont want...)

hurmmm
its difficult....
but i do believe everything is His fate
and
if we'r meant to be together, we'll be together sooner or later...
but,
the problems occurred when we cannot see our future...
we can all just plan something and He is going to decide what is going to happen and what is not.....
so, all we need to do is just pray to Him..
He will listen to our sincere heart...


Sooo..
its enough about it....
i don't want to let my heart control my mind....
so MIEMI please!!!!
let bygone be bygone...
just forget about the past..
its all history...
do focus for ur study...
its more important than thinking to other things rite now...
please don't waste ur time on these kind of stuffs....
-i think i can handle it-

~~~~~~~~~

waaaa

why..why...why...why...why...
its very5 hard to understand a guy....
i thought i already know him better but, actually I'm failed...
how i'm going to face this...
he keeps on denying
n
someone keeps on telling me...
hurmmm
at one point, i thought i noe him better and i should listen to him n trust him...
at one point, i think that the other side is right...
if not, why on earth is that human being telling me all these things??
that's really no point of that creature making up those things...

.......life........
sometimes we are up in the sky...
sometimes we are down to earth...
so many sometimes can make our life colourful...
so many colourful can make our head dizzy...
thinking all the things that we shouldn't...
thinking all the things that we have to...

-waaaa-
i need someone to be by my side...
i need someone to listen to me...
but...
i cant tell this to mummy.. or k.lynn or deq nur...
or anyone else...
if not...
it will ruin everything...
so, better for me to keep this as my secret ever...
owh, my goodness...
i really3 hope that this precious thing gone as soon as possible..
with the right decision i'll make...
with the right way i'll choose..
with the right thing i'll think...

i should get what i should get

life is soo meaningful....
dont noe where to start...but b4 i close my eyes....
i'm 4 sure dat my heart is not in da safe mode.....
whether to trust or not...i dont noe...
all i noe is, i am very8 upset with him........
i dont noe whether the info i got can help me or not....
but...
why, all of a sudden someone comes to me and tells everything bad about him....
i dont noe...i dont noe...n i dont noe........
all the stories told were hit by me.....i was puzzled.....
and again, dont noe what 2 do...
dont noe how 2 take action....
well,
decision-making in life is sooo vry hard 2 do,
especially when it is deal with our mind, heart n soul.....
n of course all of this will bring something in our future and will leave footprints in our hearts... not for a temporary, but maybe permanent......

i realize something....
the closer we are, the more things 2 be argued...
am i 2 perfectionist or picky or fussy?
everything seems difficult 2 be handled...
i bet no one in this world can be 100% trusted, but yet we can trust up to 99% depends on the individuals that we knew..
why all of these come to me?
to tell me that i'm wrong?
or
to tell me that i'm good enough?
all are questions marks......

am i did the wrong things for accepting him in my life?
for giving him 2 stay in my heart?
for giving him the permission to noe me well?
i dont noe.......

sometimes i think that enough is enough...
but sometimes i think that its only hurdles for us in moving on with our lives...
well...
easy 2 say.....
just follow the flow....
but how can i go on with the flow if my heart is in critical room?
i should noe what 2 do so that i can cure my heart back...
but i cant.....
i'll try my best 2 choose the right path in my life...
owh,
please make me strong in handling this
n
i hope i can trust the right people....
i have been lied soo many people, lovers, friends.....
n i'm kinda tired of trusting......

i'm feel sorry to myself...
mybe this is one of the thorn in going through the path that i've chosen...
i'm not asking for sympathy to anyone.......
but i'm writing to feel relieve on my own........

....sorry 4 da harsh words i've thrown....