me and job

wow. it s been a veryyy long time this blog has been ignored.
there s a lot of things that i ve been through.
ups and downs definitely, well that s life right.

talking about job, alhamdulillah i love my job and i enjoy working with all my heart.
i enjoy meeting the different kinds of students in different programmes, in different classes and in different places too. they always make my day, through their actions and whatnot. thanks a lot to Papa because he forced me to go to UDM seven years ago. otherwise i ll not be here now. Alhamdulillah for that. many syukur to Allah.

however, being a lecturer is not an easy job like what people always see. there s a lot more to deal with, to do with etc. when you are a lecturer then you know how difficult it is to prepare the test items, how diificult it is to grab big students attention in class; just to teach grammar again which they have been learning that for at least eleven years at school, still they cant afford to master it, how to deal with support staffs and colleagues; the senior lecturers and the same-batch lecturers etc. phewww many many many more of complications in this field. and oh, please dont forget, the burden is bigger when you are an English lecturer or a language lecturer. you have to know how to organize your words properly before you throw them out. and the most important thing is you cant afford to make a single mistake!! in class or outside of the class. people will see, we do not know. ohh dont forget, in this education line u cant run from studying all the time, doing research, read journals and all those kind of things. a lecturer must be knowledgeable too. you cant guess what questions these smart kids will ask in class but u have to answer them all spontaneuosly with the right feedback.

oh dear, after almost two months i ve been in this field, then i start to think whether i am in the right track or not. well, i hope i am and will always be. experienced working in the private company during the intership was a disaster. that s not the company nor the people in there but it s me who do not like that kind of working environment. 9 am-5 pm everyday doing work at your work station like nobody cares. and i cant help myself to counting hours every day to get home and very much looking forward for the weekend.

well, this is life. ups and downs. happy and sad. it s just that you have to be positive all the time because i once tried this to myself. stop complaining things and look at the good sides of it. you ll be happier than you ll think. oh, life is about a learning process too. the process will never stop until you die.

that s all for now. Allah knows when ll be the next write up.. pardon me for that.. not that busy but not that motivated to write anything.

assalamualaikum all. happy fasting. :)

i'm a strong girl.. :)

i have to be strong to face this..

you have to be strong too..

we have to be strong..

there's always a reason for anything..

just put a smile and go on..

patience

patience is virtue

patience is faith

patience is success

patience is victory

patience is priceless

patience is everything

be patient is a key to success in everything you do in life..

working life~

salam and hi to all..

been a long time right?

always like that maaa..hee

well, as the title above, it is not that i am in my new phase of my life..

its just im doing my internship for three months in one of the technology companies in PJ...

but, 

honestly i dont like working..

before this, 

i;ve been dreaming to work in the office, in a company like what in the drama shows..

now, i realize, our life is not as easy as in the drama, 

and not as interesting and sweet just like the drama..

counting weeks, hours and days to say goodbye to this company..

nothing bad about the company..

everything is fine and awesome..

got my own desk, got a notebook, the staffs are friendly and kind, the bosses are good etc..

its just me who dont like in here..

to be honest, 

i prefer going to classes, doing assignments and studying for the exams compared to going to work..

weird huh? well, it is me..

i found this kind of life is a boring one..

wake up early in the morning, going to work, come back at maghrib and sleep and wake up again..

whatever it is, i hope i'm doing well in here..

well, its all about grades yeah.. still student..remember? huu

currently struggling on FYP too..

pray that everything goes smooth and fine as planned.. 

and really hope i can present well at the end of the semester..

 pray for me too, please?

 so scared to go through every day..

till then.. 

bye~

believe in HIM

if we cannot get what we want,

 please make us want what we get,
ya Allah..

we believe in  YOU..

what YOU have planned for us are the best things which we dont know what's the best for us..

there must be something in every single things happened..

thank you ALLAH for guiding us to the right path..

insyaAllah everything will be great in years ahead..amin..

p/s: be grateful in everything you do.. insyaAllah, there's the best way for you..for us..

missing her~

nothing much to be updated..

all i can say are: 

i miss her.. so much..

i miss all of us.. very much..

i miss being together.. always..

i miss talking and sharing things with you..

i miss to have valuable memories with you..

yes, deep inside my heart.. 

i always miss you.. 

and will always be..

for every seconds and moments..

maybe i was wrong..

maybe i was too harsh..

maybe i was not matured..

maybe i was arrogant..

maybe i was stupid..

maybe i was selfish..

maybe i was bad..

maybe everything because of me..

please forgive me..

knowing you was a pleasure..

learned so many things from you..

you will never be erased in my heart..

p/s: i know we'll never be like before.. but, just want you to know. i love you and i miss you. so much. sorry for evertything. and good luck for your future..

 

inner conflict

hello everyone..

its been a while since i didnt post something in here..

so many things to do..

so many things to think of..

so many things happened..

nothing much to say.. 

just peeping into this blog..

well, this year we gonna have the family day: Ibrahim & Sons Family Day which i cant remember the seventh, eighth or ninth..)

it sounds good, as we can meet each other, playing games and enjoying ourselves with all of those fantastic activities plus, the never-fail-to-be-happy during the dinner with the fabulous theme chosen. 

however, 

this year, im not so looking into this family day because i already know the most famous question to be asked to me is about: "when am i going to finish my study", yes, this is so true!

i hate being asked that question because everyone the same age as mine were all successfully graduated..

maybe people out there dont know and dont feel me but i really feel like i am too slow in learning when people keep on asking the same question over and over again, and still, i am not yet graduating..

well, people who graduate late basically is because of they have repeat papers or they are really problematic students.. or, they must be medical students..

but, im not.. i only took english and why cant i graduate early??!! hurmmm

i got many wedding invitations day by day..

 it is not that i really want to get married..

my point is that they graduated early, get the good job therefore they can settle down easily..

even one of my bestfriends is now expecting to have her first child..

 but me?

i dont even finish my bachelor degree.. :'(

 up to now, up to this point, i still be upset and frustrated to myself upon thinking and reminiscing about my spm result..i know, it was 6 years back but still, i cant help it out of my mind..not even a second..

it was so frustrated and regretful not to score during my spm.. i was being left by most of them in Malaysia, doing my diploma in a place which i myself dont know the existance of that instituition (UDM, previously, so called KUSZA) while others start to do their foundation for the degree programme and A-level to go abroad..

but i do believe ALLAH has chosen the best path for me to go..

i just need to follow the correct and right way of going to the end of my life..

 after all,  

i am so grateful with what HE had given to me and i am so blessed with what i had now..

i am writing here not to complaint of anything, i am just pouring what i have in my heart and mind..

i cant wait to graduate as an English for Professional Communication student from UiTM and inshaAllah will further my masters degree soon..

p/s: let us pray for the best as we dont know whats the best for us. inshaAllah everything will be smooth as planned..

eid 2011

salam merdeka raya to all muslims in the world..

alhamdulillah i've been celebrating raya for 23 years with my beloved family..

like all,

raya is celebrated with love and happy as we gathered in the family, meet relatives and friends and oh, relatives-to-be maybe? ;)

nothing much to say..

enjoy the photos below..

*with mummy, and abe*

*abe again with papa*

*awesome cousins*

*yeeppii*

*with anur: model-like pose*

*with abe aka teddy bear*

*with adeq*

*eating when no guests are around*

*guests are eating, mimi is snapping*

*second day in the car*

*raya at hutan rimba?*

*third day: normal pose when nobody wants to snap for me*

*the only picture that i can snap with rizq! i mean the proper one*

*see, he's here!*

*mami n mek look like siblings*

*fourth day: at nabilah's wedding, but no bride and bridegroom*

*again, only us*

*fifth day: waiting for besty to pick up and go for raya, oh rizq is helping to clean up the house!*

okay..

that's it for raya 2011..

i wish i can upload all.. hee ;D

i seek for forgiveness from the bottom of my heart to all of you..

may this syawal brings more lights or 'nur' in our life.. :)

p/s: Rizq was not celebrating first day raya in KB.. :(

Ramadhan Kareem

alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..
i'm so grateful and thankful to Allah for giving me this precious opportunity to celebrate this holy month with my beloved family...
i have one whole month for sahur and iftar with mummy, papa and deq nur..
yes, only three of them..
but it is more than enough for me..
syukur. =)

oh,
last weekend was superb as everyone was coming home to celebrate Ramadhan together.
and we were all happy being together.. :D
the most excited person on earth during that time was Rizq..
he had this whole house for himself..
running here and there..
laughing and rolling..
and sometimes 'pe'el' too..
etc.

alhamdulillah..
i can perform my terawih almost every night..
alhamdulillah..
i help mummy a lot..
and
i'm satisfied with that even though i didn't go out for part time job..
the most satisfaction for me is when i can wake up as early at 4.30am every morning for sahur.. and guess what?
i'm the one who prepare for sahur and i just wake them up at 5.00am..
me, myself could hardly believe it was me doing that..
previously i was the one who woke up late and sometimes i didn't take sahur because i didn't want to wake up..
and now, i'm all changed..
alhamdulillah.. =)
(err maybe it shows i'm an adult??) :p

that's all for now..
happy fasting peeps..
may this fasting month brings happiness for all of us..
may we will be under HIS blessings, always..

p/s: don't eat too much during iftar, yeah.. you might miss terawih.. :)

comeback!

whoa! what a long rest i had..

been doing nothing at home but have no feelings to write and decorate this baby blog...

i had so many things to be shared with...

i had so many downs these days...

i had also my ups during my rest for blogging...

many...

many...

many...

maybe because i already have something that i can share with,

that is why this blog is neglected days and nights...

i give everything in my twitterland because i really enjoyed twittering far more better than facebooking and blogging...

everything that happened to me,

straight away will be updated in my twitter...

definitely that is the main point i didn't write anything in here...

and

owh!

talking about facebook,

i think my facebook account really needs a rest..

and i give it a rest...

its a good thing for me...

no scandaling..

no gossiping..

no stalking...

no chatting...

and there's a lot more of no this and no that...

but this is not gonna be permanent...

i'll be on again when i'm ready...

so far i could manage it well...

(",)

okay

till then..

will be writing again when i feel like to write...

-daa-

p/s: oh, i really need a vacation now........

so long part 3

nothing much to update....

working very hard on the web page....

finishing the assignments....

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okay..

bye...

p/s: need to prepare for the exams as well...

adults must lead in respect for others.

alhamdulillah.

my writing was published.

this is my first experience and it was a success.

maybe i can write more some other time.

yes, for my future career.

(thanks lyla for helping me in googling the article)

http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/3/12/focus/8238731&sec=focus

(sorry cant provide with the hard copy)

and now.

i'm working hard on my interactive cd for standard 1 students.

hopefully it is also a success.

seriously will be proud if the cd is proposed to the Ministry of Education.

and will very very very proud if it is accepted and use for learning process.

till then.

bye.

=))

p/s: this is kind of motivation for me to work harder...

its cool babe~

courses taken this semester were very challenging...

seriously...

this is not a joke...

really cracks my thick head in doing everything.....

i don't even have time to go home during weekend...

i don't even have time to hang out at malls with my friends.....

i don't even have time to take a very longgg nap...(only a short while-well, it is a nap, rite? ;))

however...

courses of this semester have taught me a lot in dealing with people especially in business setting...

my assignments and tasks are all awesome and cool...

- have to give respond to one of the articles in newspaper whether NST or The Star...

if our responses are published in those newspapers, we will get bonus marks...

- have to make an interactive CD for standard 1 students, based on their syllabus and will be proposed to the Ministry of Education....

- need to create our own webpage, having all of our personal details there including e-resume etc...

- have to have wordpress blog and need to write the blog at least once a week about the lesson taught in that week and marks will be given based on our reflections of that week... oh, we also need to comments on others as well as all the posts will be published....

- need to go to one of the companies that used English medium to see how they work in professional field and make a report on that...

don't you think this is awesome? cool? it is right?

even though it is just like that, looks like simple tasks but it needs a lot of patience and determination in doing all those kinds of stuffs....

i don't know about others, but i am really thrilling with these tasks...

maybe some of you already expose to this kind of things, but not me...

and i have to work reallllyyy hard on these.....

pray for me, please...

i need those prayers...

a lot...

really...

p/s: i will always having problems with the technology stuffs......really bad in that field.... =(

comelnya berbaju kurung

owh, this is first time ever i've been tagged in this blog and for the first time i will involve in this kind of competition...

thanks to jalielah for tagging me... =)

actually i didnt realize that it was me..i thought it was your other friend...ehehe

this contest is actually from siti khadijah

now, here it goes...

SEBAB PEREMPUAN PAKAI BAJU KURUNG COMEL

perempuan yang pakai baju kurung adalah comel kerana menyerlahkan keayuan dan kesantunan mereka....

mereka yang memakia baju kurung akan secara automatiknya menjadikan mereka berkelakuan seperti seorang perempuan, dengan erti kata lain perempuan adalah perempuan di mana sekeras-keras atau seganas-ganas mereka adalah perempuan juga...

perempuan adalah sinonim dengan kelembutan dan kesusilaan mereka...oleh itu, dengan memakai baju kurung ini segala sifat-sifat seorang perempuan yang semula jadi akan terserlah sama ada melalui cara berjalan, bercakap atau sebagainya...

PENDAPAT TENTANG BAJU KURUNG

bagi saya, baju kurung adalah satu-satunya baju yang akan meyelamatkan anda semua dari 'out of place' which means kalau anda ke tempat yang formal secara senangnya anda boleh memilih baju kurung sebagai baju pilihan andaa....

baju kurung amatlah sinonim dengan pakaian formal di mana ramai kaum selain daripada Melayu yang memakainya terutama sekali semasa sesi pembentangan professional..

selain itu, pemilihan baju kurung boleh menampakkan bentuk tubuh badan anda....di sini ia membawa maksud bahawa baju kurung kadang-kadang menampakkan anda kurus dengan tubuh badan anda yang sebenar, atau menampakkan keseksiaan anda....

baju kurung tidak ditelan zaman dan lapuk dek hujan kerana pemakainnya adalah sepanjang zaman...walau semoden mana sekalipun, baju kurung tetap digayakan sewaktu majlis keraian seperti majlis hari raya atau semasa kenduri...

*just a simple baju kurung*

okay..now, i'm going to tag another 5 person:

yann

eja

najwa sofwani

isskhoo

suehana roslan

--> tarikh tutup penyertaan adalah 20 february 2011...

p/s: am so excited in updating this entry.... =)

I'm a big girl...

Being a 23-year-old girl, I think I know the true life in real life better...with all the people around me, with all the situations I need to face etc....

Owh, not to talk about others..
Its all about me..being me...
One thing I realize that I am more demanding now... As I buy all the expensive things to be put on me... Well, for me its expensive simply because I need to pay almost everything using my own money... Previously I use lots of papa's and mummy's money that is why the price is doesn't matter for me...Now the price is the very first thing I check when go for shopping... Owh, how money is important and how difficult to earn money...........

Nothing much to write, just thinking of budgeting my financial allowance... How am I going to make those money enough for me..yes, only me..no other person to be involved yet... Difficult thing to do actually because I need to buy almost everything what I want.. including food..I can't even saving for that part... Yes, I'm on diet but still the food is expensive nothing much difference with those who are not on diet....

Okay, enough for now...
Till then...
Bye...


P/s: I will always believe that money is everything, when we have money, we can buy almost everything including people..... :)



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gtalk now!

Am so excited of having gtalk of my own...
Terrible right? Everyone has started using gtalk for a very long time ago but I just have my own account for that...
So funny of me...
Owh, by the way.. Feel free to add me at miemizahari@gmail.com... :)
We gonna hit the chat room yeah...

Okay, that's it.. Bubye... ;)


P/s: for the time being I only have 2 friends in common.. Oo-hoo what a shame!


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heart-feeling-love-

after a long time didn't update my blog....

then, this entry is a sad entry, unfortunately....

i dont know about others but for me being in a relationship is really3 difficult thing to commit...

if i do commit full of my heart, what about he then??

love cannot be seen, cannot be touched, the only thing can be is felt...

that is why, it is difficult for me to handle...

i hate people who break promises...

purposely or not, i will not accept that...

and even how many reasons you list down, i still will not accept that....

because everything is in our mind...

mind controls us, not we control our mind...

(if there is a will, there is a way)

keep thinking of that idiom, and i admit that it is so true...

we can say hundred of reasons if we do not want to do that but we can adjust things just like that if we really want to do that...

isn't it??

owh, one more thing i hate most is when people cannot say NO to anybody...

if you cannot go along and if you have anything else to do, just simply express it...

things will never be worst...

back to the 'relationship' thing....

relationships will always break when there is another person involved.

and i believe that every relationships that is broken is because of this third person..

if the partner did something that will hurt you, you can just forgive him/her right, except for when it is dealing with another person...

yes, that is true...

if the partner is having all the bad attitudes, you still can be with him/her and at the same time try to be better to each other, try to improve oneself..

however, when it is a very small thing and it is happen to be another person involved, then your heart might hurt so much right....and it is very painful even it is only a small matter..

just give your heart to someone that deserves better...

but..

how can we know who is the best among the best...

some says that love is all about sacrificing.. is it right???

love-heart--

p/s: good luck for those who are in a relationship and good luck for those who are going to involve with this heart thing.....and good luck to all for your loves....

half way-

Well...nothing much to say...
I'm half way to go...
Can't wait to finish this...
All of them are going to put this to an end...
Okay, I need to have lots of patience+determination towards this...
Everyday is a long day to me...
Aaaa please make me strong...
Many things have come across all of a sudden...
Don't know why, don't know how....

Okay, bye...
Till we meet again....

P/s: feelings of uncertainties...please go away, I don't need you to be in my heart...


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:-(

The class of this semester has started officially...
Usually, early classes in this first week are cancelled or postponed due to some unorganized schedule....
Therefore, we have decided to go out for shopping....

My aim is to shop the blouse or dress or shirts....
And somehow shoes and handbags....
Unfortunately, what make me feel depress is......
I AM BIGGER than before....
That makes me difficult to choose the suitable size for that....
When we did shopping yesterday, I couldn't buy a few shirts and blouse because of this problem of mine...
Most of the sales girls will said this: SORRY, THIS IS THE LAST SIZE WE HAVE.... And.... THIS IS THE LARGEST SIZE WE HAVE.... Urghhhh

And one more thing is about my face.....
Now, I regret I did facial treatment at that beauty care...
Yes, I am wrong because immediately agree to do that because of the cheap price was offered...
Now, pimples here and there....
Hope there will be no more pimples to come out and there will be no scar for the already-pimples-on-my-face ....

For now on, I've decided not to upload the pictures of mine till I am ready to face the surroundings....
But, maybe somehow there will be 'ter' upload-pics of mine....oooPpss!

P/s: I am so afraid to meet him during day time because he will notice my bad look at my face....so, let's just meet during dinner and that's it, oke?
Well, yes, I feel that my confidence level is decreased because of these problems.... Ooo-hhoo



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-the holidays end-

the time goes so fast...

the semester break will end tomorrow as i step my feet out from my house...

i did lots of things during this break...

including meeting my school friends....

oh no!

to be precised, i met only my besties...

etty..

and

mieja..

just to let you know:

nur syamimi zahari

nur amiza makhtar

nur izzati hamdan

these three girls are the third in their family and have five siblings including two sisters and two brothers....

our fathers are actually known each other before we actually met each other..

and..

the precious one is...

mieja and i were at the same school since we were in standard 1 in Zainab till form 5 in

MJSC PC...

etty was only from form 1 till form 5...

however,

those five years been in hostel together made us more intimate until now....

we shared all the sadness, happiness and everything...

*the pic was taken when we were form 2*

no meeting other friends...

but

i felt extremely happy...

we did all the gossips...

the first meeting was at mieja's house...

we're having breakfast there and off we went to kb mall

(well, no other place to go)

the first met was really good as we talked non-stop..

about our family, friends, lovers and all....

and about the breaking news we've heard...

that was so exciting...

the second place we've gathered was at my house...

i really had fun by preparing breakfast and lunch for them...

i woke up early that day to cook for them....

and..

we had lunch together with mummy, papa, kak leen, adeq and rizq...

yeah...

they were lucky because they can meet rizq as kak leen was at home during that time...

our outdoor activity was going out for shopping...

still only the three of us...

still the same place-kb mall...

the last one was at etty's place...

before we were all off to have our great holidays with our family and before the semester starts...

etty has done a very good cooking to us...

shepard pie and macaroni cheese were all awesome

and..

ibu cooked nasi beriani for lunch...

that was really good as well...

*the latest pic of us*

really had good time spending with you girls....

hopefully we'll keep in touch and keep each other updated yeah!

next semester break probably will not be same anymore if any changes being made....

p/s: i noticed that i am wearing the same blouse...hurmm need to buy some new outfit... ooo-yess!

suddenly i can't wait to go back to my study place...

tomorrow i'm leaving...

the day after tomorrow i'm meeting him...yay!

till then..

xoxo